Passing through life
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
ravings of a drama queen
it's not like i planned on it. it's not like i actually thought about it. it just happened. after 6 months of staying just above board i fell. i fell real hard again. i wasn't planning on telling anybody or you for that matter. it was just a spur of the moment. i don't know what happened to me. i don't know why i opened myself up again to this kind of emotions long buried.
you should be blamed. you should be hanged. i never thought i would feel again this way. i never thought it would go deeper. more than admiration. more than liking you. more than just thinking about you.
the signs were there. i missed you whenever i don't see you. just the sound of your sultry voice brought a smile to my face. just the mere touch of you makes me feel contented. there's always a hollow pit on my stomach when you don't talk to me. and now... today... worst came to worst... i actually felt an alien emotion just earlier. it crept up on me without even me knowing it. a bitch slap to my already emptied and confused heart. i actually felt a green monster gnawing at my chest when i saw you with her.
i will tell you now. i am insane.
