Passing through life
Monday, February 20, 2006
sometimes i wonder what will happen now. sometimes i wonder what i'm going to do. sometimes i wonder what you mean. but then sometimes contradiction sets in.
although at times your smile means something. although at times your eyes are telling me. although at times your touch turns to a caress, i'm still confused.
am i making this more unbearable for the both of us?
i don't know what to say. my mind is a bunch of tangles. i guess it's pretty obvious how much you mean to me. come to think of it...
why did i love you?
and now your birthday is coming up. i still don't know what to give you.
i have given you everything.
au revoir for now. i luv yah B.
just got back from a badly needed vacation. we went to negros, san carlos city. we meaning the whole family. az en all! cousins, titas, titos... everybody. we were eighteen on the trip. lemme start with friday.
FRIDAY, february 17
after the last tests for prefinals which was microbio and blood banking, everybody went home to change. we planned to go out that night. i wore this amazing dress(now i'm being girly here since i can't do that). yellow tube top and pink skirt. hahahahahaha they were just so shocked to see me in a skirt since i don't wear one when i'm with them. we met at a friend's house. so B was there.^_^ he was just speechless. after everybody was there, we went to this restaurant to eat. it was an all-you-can-eat resto. we had our fill. B and I were not sitting together since Ring was between us. but it was ok. he just kept looking at me and we talked like Ring wasn't in the center. he gave us his valentine's gift. he gave the other girls figurines and he gave Jing a small stuffed toy since 14 was Jing's bday. guess what... I DIDN'T GET ANY GIFT. amazing huh.
don't ask why. but it really hurt. but then since i'm such a good actress they didn't know how hurt i was.
back to this monologue... after eating we went to this karaoke bar. don't get me wrong. only B can sing a tune and we were like 13 people all together! so he always want to sing with me. and he sat beside me. hold my hand. i leaned my head on his shoulder. just being corny and romantic. it was 2 am before we departed.
and there was a goodbye kiss.
Saturday, february 18
i arrived in the house at 3 am. shook my siblings awake since we were to depart at 4 am. yep! you guess it. i didn't sleep. we went via toledo then rode a boat for two hours and the people who went before us got us from the dock.
yeah, i was definitely tired but very happy since i spent the night with B.
hm... we went around the city. boring. boring. boring.
oh yeah. we went to the cemetery because it was also the burial for the brother of my grandad.
huhums. i was just suppose to write about friday. ^_^ pics later.
au revoir for now. i luv yah B.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Happy hearts day.
Valentines is suppose to be so much fun but i can't even go out with friends or a date since i'm gonna be having my prefinals tomorrow!
can't the day get any boring. you tell me.
au revoir.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
one of my happiest days and i can't write it! sheeshh...
i'm just gonna post the pics later. notes to my self.
" what is this feeling, i just can't explain."
au revoir for now.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
A Litany to B
What an enchantment it was
to know I had moved on.
When my heart flutters with
the mere mention of Adams son.
Oh! I haven't forgotten the pasts
I have encountered with,
Still the ray of hope shone
with a glimpse of a new seed.
And again destiny's wheels revolved
with this tedious cycle.
Would I forever be in the hand's of
fate's cruel triangle?
Would I forever choose between
the lesser and the greater?
For one would be bitter
and the other much sweeter.
Should I settle for friendship's embrace?
or would I turn my back and
be further humiliated and be disgraced?
Should I fight for love's vibrant kisses?
or should I sit in a corner and count all of my wishes?
But in the end I know whom to choose,
the beauty that makes you happy...
and then I lose.
