Passing through life
Sunday, October 30, 2005
days went by idly. went to parties and just hang out with people. i can't seem to stop smoking. it's like when i stop i fell depressed again or something. i know it's psychological but what can i do? it's like hormones are taking over me. i was never contented on anything. i seem to crave for something more. i'm just afraid that after i try it all i will just simply rot and be wasted. come to think of it... i am wasted.
stop pretending, it's too late.
just accept your ill-fitted fate.
for loving yourself is the best thing to do,
because nobody else will but only you.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
almost 4 hours has gone by and still i'm chatting with the same person. he really caught my attention. at first i thought i would never meet someone who is witty, intelligent, cute, sensitive, gets along well with me in the channel nowadays. channels has somewhat been taken over by this sex-starved maniacs who thinks with their groin area rather than their brains. i was so glad to meet a kindred person who truly listens and understands. here's a little info about him....
Justin Arledge
24 years old
American
Staying in Cebu but constantly travels...
businessman
so on and so forth...... LOL
i don't know what has gotten into me but i hope this would be a new beginning of a beautiful friendship.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Thanks y'all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Thank you for remembering peeps! I won't forget it.
a million kisses and hugs
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Curious...i am just so curious to see and to know who would remember...
Here's a one question IQ Test to help you decide how you should spend the rest of your day?
There is a mute who wants to buy a toothbrush.?By imitating the action of brushing one's teeth, he successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is done.
Now if there is a blind man who wishes to buy a pair of sunglasses, how should he express himself??
Think about it first before scrolling down for the answer
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He opens his mouth and says. "I would like to buy a pair of sunglasses"If you got this wrong - please turn off your computer and call it a night.
from a blog that has a title of "in a world called catastrophe" ... thank you for making me laugh, whoever you are.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
i got my grades. i'm not that happy or sad with it. i think i deserved that grade. i will be enrolling tomorrow though. i can't think of anything more boring to do ^-^
no more nightlife. no more cigarette or booze for me. i'm trying to set my life straight again. i'm not ok with it. i'm not also sad with it. i'm just numb with everything. it's like i'm an empty shell. it's like i'm in the middle of things without anything to hold on to. i sometimes asked myself if i can actually feel something about anything. and the answer is always zip. nada. it's actually like in a limbo. maybe this is how purgatory feels like. in the middle. but i don't believe in that kind of shit.
maybe because i gave my all in the past that there is nothing more to give. i've been emptied again and again. pain eludes me. happiness ran away from me that i'm nothing more than a lifeless doll seeing things but not feeling anything.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
at last! after a busy week with finals, i now have a chance to update this. i'm free! i am so tired with school. and i still have a year to go.
*sighs*
but then if i just struggle with it i would definitely graduate without anymore hitches and obstacles.
*cross my fingers*
let me just grab this opportunity to greet a HAPPY NUPTIALS to... some people. i don't know if they did pursue with the wedding or not last October 11, 2005. all i can say is congratulations and i am happy for the both of you.
this second one is to congratulate a friend who is an octoberian graduate. i am happy for you girl. luv yah.
Friday, October 07, 2005
i never thought it would be that hard for me to see them again. when i saw them i thought to myself "oh, gawd. i miss them." their smiles really warmed me and their hugs had always made my day. and now... oh, well. i haven't change. i'm always the person they had known from the start.
i don't have any inspiration to write anymore. everytime i sit infront of the computer my mind go blank. it's like i don't know what to think and do here. i used to create poems and stories. and now i don't know.
poems of death and sadness.
i can't take this anymore! i need to breathe. empty my mind always. swim away with all of my might. STOP
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Happy Birthday Kuya
so many years have gone by and still you are one of the most precious people i know. You will always be the big brother i never had. thank you. i luv you from the bottom of my heart.
since i can't see you, i will just greet you here with a very happy happy birthday. may you find the right person for you. you will always be special to me. no matter what. 100 kisses and hugs.
i just miss you so much.
