Passing through life
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
depressed for four days now...i haven't seen him since last sunday. i am so freaking depressed. i know he is on leave.. but still... so i am wearing black since sunday. it suits my mood and state of mind. i may laugh on the outside but deep inside i feel empty. i wanted to call him so badly. but i am afraid he would reject it. there are so many what ifs right now. what if he would cancel my call... or worse ignore it. what if he would get angry because i called... or worse cut off our friendship. shit! the pain is so unbearable and dulling.
sometimes i wonder if it is worth it.. all the price i have to pay.
sometimes i wonder if it is worth it.. all the price i have to pay.
