Passing through life
Friday, September 30, 2005
oh, gawd! i was reading some blog and their was this one comment in the tagboard site that got my attention. you slut! that statement will haunt me. i won't reply to that besides only a few people knows about the real score. and why can't you keep your odious comments to yourself, ei? with that stupid nick you gave yourself. come on.
there. i'm blabbing my head off with this nonsense. honestly? you are not worth the space you despicable piece of shit!
and puhleez! those kinds of remarks just shows how uneducated you are. believing on gossips? can't you get any lower?
this was a conversation i had a few days ago with an old... someone.
He: hey do u still remember me?
She: yeah! how can i forget you?
He: How are you? what have you been doing this past few months?
She: nothing much. just school and some extracurricular activities.
He: i just got back from canada.
She: good for you then.
He: so, any new guys lately.
She: don't have time for one.
He: do u ever still think about us?
She: sure. our memories were some of the best ones.
He: me, too. i missed you so much.
She: (smiles) missed yah too. ei, don't tell me you still love me after what i had done to you.
He: honestly speaking? yes. i still do. i was hoping... never mind.
She: (laughs) ok.
He: how about you? do you still love me?
She: i told you in the past i will always luv yah right? BUT there comes a time when you accept some facts that you were never meant to be. (smiles)
He: (nods) i understand. i guess i will settle for friendship then.
there are some memories that makes you smile and laugh. at least in the end we are still friends. and i for one believe that friendships are more lasting than being lovers.
Monday, September 26, 2005
ahahahahahahahahaha!| Your Seduction Style: Sex Pot |
 Most people don't feel attractive or desired enough - a need which you tap into.You have the ultimate sex appeal, and getting attention from you is a total self esteem boost.Your confidence is contagious, and you help others unleash their own sexuality. Your sex pot seduction skills are so intoxicating that you can get away with... well, almost murder.Lovers feel like your sensuality is in your blood, so it's only natural if you flirt a little.And if you stray, that might be okay as well - as long as you make your lover still feel hot. |
What Kind of Seducer Are You?
| How You Are In Love |
 You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
How Are You In Love?
Friday, September 23, 2005
i've decided to delete all of my accounts and LJ. it's just that... i don't want to hang on to something that will depress me even more. at least now even if my life is definitely boring with a capital B, i won't get stamped out or something. at least now i won't get hurt by your insensitiveness. i kept on texting you but you are definitely pushing me away. don't worry. i get messages even how subtle it is. i just can't get you out of my mind until now. it has almost been one year since i fell for you and still counting.
i saw one of my old friends in high school. ok. my old girlfriend. when i was still young and a lezbo. LOL. she has grown very pretty. we exchange numbers, hugs and kisses.
i just can't get over the tidbit jean told me earlier on the phone. OMG. jaimes got someone pregnant. i mean it was suppose to be a nothing for me. i should be flippant about it but the news still shocked me. it was the girl who kept calling him. he actually slept with the girl just to shut her up but don't tell me he didn't use a contraceptive. jeez. that would be so stupid of him. actually, as of now jaimes still doesn't know about the preggy thing. the girl just told jaimes' friend who happened to be jean's boyfriend. his reaction would be hilarious. he would definitely get confused because he practiced safe sex. hehehehehehehehe.
i'm becoming a japanese food junkie. i kept on eating at rai-rai ken(a jap resto). food is good but people around are lousy. i've been a downer lately. i guess i need to push myself again for the hell of it.
nothing matters anymore. *yawns
Saturday, September 17, 2005
i lurve yah
the ever so dashing steven strait was one of the main characters in "sky high". he portrayed as warren peace with the powers of fire.
the movie was good but it can be improved. i believe he has some major talents.
he would be starring next in "undiscovered" as luke falcon. i'm excited to know he has his chances.
i can't wait to see those lips again.
Friday, September 09, 2005
i didn't sleep well last night.
i just can't imagine why. i mean i wasn't even thinking in that manner. i didn't accuse him of anything. it was just a simple question. my mind was blank when i typed that Q. i admit that the follow up statement was rude but i didn't mean to imply about anything about it. it was a complete misunderstanding. we were thinking on two different levels.
i mean it hurts, you know. you should know me by now that i never imply on such things like socialclimbing or what. and i seldom utter or think about those kinds of things. i never choose people or what so i havn't been thinking along those lines.
you should have asked me first about what i meant about it. it's just that... never mind. it doesn't matter anymore. you said your piece and your decision.
i don't matter in the first place. and by the way, charles wanted me to kiss you for him. he said he likes you because he thinks you are a great person. *kisses*
Thursday, September 08, 2005
what a weird day. a friend of mine (i don't know if he is still a friend though after that incident) texted me about something. we had a different understanding on about the comment i made. i just hope he isn't angry anymore. it was really weird on my part when you got a hurt person texting you suddenly. whew.
at the present i'm watching "my wife th gangster". hm... funny movie.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
whew! definitely boring. semi-finals is coming up and i still got loads of lessons to catch up. being absent for a while has it's ups and downs. i'm doing great with my majors actually. but sad to say i still have one minor and it sucks. having an average of 4 for just one measly minor and that's for two units! can't i just concentrate on my majors?! it's really bumming me out. teachers kept on bugging me about my research works and activities for my laboratories. i really need to catch up.
lemme see...
Majors:
Parasitology (lab and lec)
Hematology (lab and lec)
Clinical Chemistry 1 (lab and lec)
Clinical Microscopy (lab and lec)
Medtech laws and Ethics
Minor:
Biostatistics
*groans... still so many things to do. at least i'm done with Clin Chem, Clin Mic and Para. Only two more subjects to catch up to.
*groans again.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
A Terrific Dateafter a terrible weekend with mumps (eeww), i had a really great date yesterday! i met someone through ross (my girl's bf). his name was james. half-pinoy and half-brit. i thought he was older than i am so i was a bit shocked that ross hooked me up with someone so young! but then he was definitely cute.. CUTE. ^-^ we met in ratsky for some drinks. we immediately clicked. thank god i can still talk to straight guys (it was a first). i kept talking in english and i still have this nagging pain in my throat so i sometimes mumbled my words. he definitely didn't notice because he understands them. then ross and jean left us. i knew what ross was thinking. i liked that guy! hehehehehe
where was i? oh, yeah then after that we still ordered some few more drinks. after that, i suggested we strolled around ayala. i saw some of my friends. jay with a guy(don't know who... but i suggest you find another one kuya), saw khalie eating in KFC, Jehu with some velezian nursings, some old classmates and friends from velez, nathan dancing alone in dance freak(where's ur date?) and fremmont with some girl(weird...). James asked me who they were because i greeted all of them with a kiss and a hug. i told him they were my friends. ms. popularity huh? i just smiled a little. so james asked me if i want to watch a movie. maybe now i wouldn't know someone inside the movie house. LOL. poor kid. he was left out. *kisses such a sweetie really. i said sure. he wants to watch the movie THE CAVE. so ok. even i had seen that one. he was my date after all. girls kept staring at him and texting him. i didn't mind really. he even let me answer one girl who called in his CP. hehehehehehehehe did i say he was sweet? definitely! we just cuddled inside the movie house. nothing happend. i don't want him to get my virus. a new thing for me. ^-^ after the movie we strolled again and i saw my baby yo and andrue. then we went home. i was tired and i need my rest.
come to think of it.. i didn't give him my cell number(even if he asked inside the theatre) and i didn't asked his number. hm... let's see if fate intervenes. what a great night!
Thanks James. if u have been older and bisexual i would definitely go for you. as it is, i didn't feel anything.
Friday, September 02, 2005
75 Years Youngwell i recently just arrived from davao. my grandmother was celebrating her 75th birthday. my mom and some of my relatives from cebu and manila went home first. my mom basically because she was the one who's gonna prepare the food for the party. the venue didn't cost that much due to the fact that it was held in davao. after a week, my siblings and i with some other relatives who were left for there midterms or work finally went home.
the trip was exhausting to the point of being fun in an exhilarating way. we dock in cagayan and traveled by van for six hours to get to davao. it was our choice to go by boat because we get to meet some people on the way *winks. Our body was battered but we were happy to be back home.
it was one heck of a party. my family was just expecting 300 guests or less due to the weather but to our amazement more than 500 showed up! i won't go boring on the details. the pics will tell the story for itself.
(some of my cousins)
(my grandmama)
(some my little cousins dancing)
(ew...)
(a bit of taste of my clan)
Thursday, September 01, 2005
you can't hide away from everything. my vacation has done me good. davao was good for me. i just want to start a new beginning. a new life to lead and fulfill. i can't say i'm happy. i can't say i'm sad either. they would always be a part of me. no matter what. no, i'm not going to find new friends or what. i'm just gonna finish my studies and do my parents a favor. i'm going to get that diploma no matter what. i would tackle a different road from now on. no, it's not that i'm leaving my past behind.
i erased evrything except the first blog that was made here. it's special for me. updates later. i still have a class to attend to.
