Passing through life
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
i got my grades. i'm not that happy or sad with it. i think i deserved that grade. i will be enrolling tomorrow though. i can't think of anything more boring to do ^-^
no more nightlife. no more cigarette or booze for me. i'm trying to set my life straight again. i'm not ok with it. i'm not also sad with it. i'm just numb with everything. it's like i'm an empty shell. it's like i'm in the middle of things without anything to hold on to. i sometimes asked myself if i can actually feel something about anything. and the answer is always zip. nada. it's actually like in a limbo. maybe this is how purgatory feels like. in the middle. but i don't believe in that kind of shit.
maybe because i gave my all in the past that there is nothing more to give. i've been emptied again and again. pain eludes me. happiness ran away from me that i'm nothing more than a lifeless doll seeing things but not feeling anything.
