Passing through life
Thursday, March 09, 2006
when time stands stillreminiscing things sometimes makes you wonder how the hell did you get out in tough situations, fall in and out of love or gain and lose some friends. sometimes we wish things never change or things should get better than this or i shouldn't have done that thoughts but if we just sit and think for a while we would thank ourselves for experiencing those.
i'm just getting cheesy here after reading some memories i wrote in other people's blogs, testimonials and even after reading my thoughts in some old scratch letters i kept before sending it to people.
now i'm just amazed how my feelings are never constant. how i would feel this strongly for a person at a certain time and then it would evaporate after days, weeks, months or years. i'm talking about all kinds of relationship. friendship, flings, sexual encounters, sweethearts and complications. i don't want to say i'm commitment-phobia or an attachment freak. it's just that i'm flighty, never want to be tied to a certain commitment or choke a certain someone. no, i'm not afraid of getting hurt... maybe.
i'm also amazed how i can easily acquire confidants, good conversations and the feeling of togetherness. i seem to jump from one situation to another. i laugh a lot weather the situation may be good or bad. i seldom let people see me angry. as much as possible i want to control it.
*giggles... what the hell am i babbling about...
nah.. i'm just contemplating why the hell are my own friends thinking that i'm not serious with B. it's still bugging me, yah know. that's what they saw. and letting them see the baloney in it. then people are dumb if they believe the facade they are seeing. kevz.
au revoir for now. i luv B.
