Passing through life
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
days rushed past me that i haven't made time to post or maybe i just don't want to post something. it really amuse me how i'm so different when i write something and what i let people see me in the outside. maybe that's why i kept this blog to let my other side show.
i got my grades and thank god i passed my hardest subject. i literally jumped for joy when i saw my name with the people who passed. B treated us to dinner. and no surprises he passed all of his subjects. now were gonna part ways. just thinking about it makes me miss him even more. i just can't believe how much i love him and i can't even let him know or show how i feel since i don't know how! stupid really. since i'm such a frank person but when it comes to what i feel for someone i just clam up.
how can i show you when in the first place i don't even know what you really feel for me. sometimes i feel that our feelings are mutual and sometimes i feel that your just using me because you know i love you. even if i don't want to proceed to medicine i'm actually contemplating to proceed because you want to be a doctor and i just want to be with you.
are you worth it? giving up my dreams just to be with you? i need security. i need stableness.
i need you.
au revoir.
